I'm a warrior

So just like I promise in my post before, in this post I’m gonna talk about me, and my 3 years of blogging! 3 years! Whoaaa! Crazy eh? It feels like just yesterday. Seriously it really is. (note yourself this gonna be long and emotional post, hehehe)

I never think how far this simple blog can take me, I never tought that three years since that first post I will have three thousand and more readers, who ? me? Three thousand? Really? Seriously? Just so you know one of the reason I made this blog is because I don’t have any friend to talk to, and now here I am with you my three thousand readers. I am blessed, so blessed. Thank you, seriously thank you. And forgive my bad habbit, I know I neglected this blog so many times, but really blogging is like painting for me, I need the right mood, the right moment. And trust me I wish I can update my blog as many as I can, but with school and everything that thing is not quite possible right now. So, My salute goes to those bloggers who can always update their blog, because I know it ain’t easy. Ain’t easy at all. Once more, please forgive me, but I only blog when I want to, not because I have to. Period.

I read your emails, messages, direct messages, tweets, every single one, I swear I do, but I’m sorry if I’m not reply most of it, I wish I can, I do not mean to brag or anything, but I got so many and I just don’t know where to start. Or sometimes I’m busy crying because I’m so moved by your letter, so many letter flattering me too much, many times I feel I do not deserve it. I’m just weird kid, a very shy one.

One time someone asked me, until when you will continue your blog? I answered “until is not fun anymore” because for me my blog is one my playground where I can write anything I want, I can post everything I want. I’ve been asked about 5 times to make something what so called ‘professional’ blog it’s not like sending me products to wear, but they will have control of how many times I have to blog and the contain of my post , which means I will be told what to write and what to wear. I said no in an instant and oh yeah I will get some kaching , but uh no thanks. It’s sounds cool, but it sounds not fun. If you want to write something, just make your own blog, don’t use mine.

Other offer I’ve got, to fix the layout of my blog so it have more (again) professional look. Hey, I like it this way, I made it with full of struggle, hair is everywhere because I’m pulling them off because of frustrated with those html code who makes my head feels like spinning ( you know I’m just being drama queen right?) hahaha. Oh me and my tiny brain. So no matter how I wish I have that clean look blog, if I can’t make it my own, it’s better this way. The way I like it. So if one day you see my blog with cool layout it means I just raised my html skill ( which is seems like a dream right now). I’m a bit traumatized. Hehehe.

If I was asked what the best thing that my blog gave me, I will answer : I’ve a lot of new experiences! And oh my, I even just being on the list 10 of the most influential kid and teen blogger ! along with so many cool people, you can read it in here I even have my own brand called Little Nuh , I’ve been told that I also inspire some people to start they own blog, that just so wow! And ehm of course free stuff hehehe…

And top of all that, this blog gave me new friends! I have 3000 more new friends, and for me that is something unbelieveable! Me the one who start this blog because I feel so lonely. Ugh I love you all my new friends! The funny thing is one of my old friends message me, that someone telling her that now I’m change, now I become snob and don’t want to be friends anymore. Well all I can say to her. I do not change, even a bit. I never do, you the one who change, somehow now she’s calling me a friend while back then you don’t even want have nothing to do with. Since when we were friends? Seriously since when? I know who my old friend was, and you are not one of them. You never were. Ah drama. So there there my so called old friends. But if you happen want to be my friends now, I'll accept it with open arms, but please don't making up stories about me, that just won't do.

Friends are those rare people who ask how you are and then wait for the answer.
~Author Unknown

A friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out.
~Grace Pulpit

A true friend is one who thinks you are a good egg even if you are half-cracked.
~Author Unknown

There’s some low moment in my blog life, when people doubt me, when people say I‘m not pretty, when people say I’m too mature and all that. Sometimes I have to admit that it did bring me down, but do you know what makes me still want to go on and continue blogging without thinking about that negative comment? The answer is your emails! Your messages, your comment, your tweet, your everything! So many letter that makes me a stronger person, and thousand thank you and kisses for that! So if one day I stop blogging it will never gonna because negative comment or those negative person. Don’t worry I’m a warrior. You guys make me one, remember?

Courage, above all things, is the first quality of a warrior.
Karl Von Clausewitz

So here’s one of email who makes me break down in tears, this is letter is from Marc due to respons of this post I'm a creep. So, do I creeped you out? Thank you Marc.

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----- Original Message ----
From: Marc A. Wilms <m.a.wilms@brainmovers.com>
To: evitanuh@yahoo.com
Sent: Fri, November 12, 2010 5:33:36 AM
Subject: your blog

Hi Evita!

I'm following your blog from time to time, I guess I don't have to say, how
impressed I am.

But today, I'm a little sad. I know, your love your dad, so don't misunderstand
me, please.

And I also know about the horror and the pain of the people in Indonesia, this
is nothing to be ignored.

And I guess, your thoughts was with the victims as long as you heard from the
things happened there.

So, my point: it is ok to party, also ok to have new dresses... the world we're
living in is full of bad things, everyday bad things happens to people all over
the world.

You are not responsible for any harm happening on this planet, you're giving
people a few good minutes reading and watching your blog.

So, these little things you're doing are you way to make the world a better
place right now.

Maybe, when you're older, finished school and maybe university, you'll work in a
position to make this world a real better place. And even if it is fashion,
something to let feel people better, than it will be your way.

But don't let these sad thoughts overwhelm you.

I respect your dad, I expect you're loving him forever (even when you think
about shooting him to the moon from time to time :) )... but he was not right
telling you his pain in this way.

So I hope, you'll enjoy your life again, noone will be better if you're not
doing this.


And I'm not sure, if I should like your black phase or not ... but it looks
amazing. And if I had to choose, I would vote for these last two dresses (maybe
called 'Addams family style') :) .


Best greetings from Germany!

Marc A.

-- Marc A. Wilms

worldwide personal training - coaching - supervision

Belvederestr. 23
50933 Cologne
Germany

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And this not gonna be a perfect post without pictures right, so here another many pictures of moi,(after three years with me, I hope you all get used to of my habbit posting hundreds of thousand pictures hehehe)

Neclaces : I cute gift from Nefertiti Jewels

Blue dress : Anez

Bracelet : Massimo dutti

Rings : It's so many I couldn't remember hehehe

Sandals : melissa jelly shoes

So that’s all I guess, I have to go now, I have to call people from The world of record t register this post as the longest blog post ever made. Seriously. ……..Hahahaha no no just kidding. No seriosly.

And oh for you who lived in Italy, there’s a 1 page article of me in Grazia Italy magazine on August issue (on Junior section) do get it! Hehehe. Kisses!