12 October, 2012

Life is either a great adventure or nothing. ~ Helen Keller

It's official! My blog is 4 years old! Awesome right?! Who would even think I could last that long? Okay, I know I suppose to say sorry for being a bad blogger and then explain the reason why I neglected my blog for soooo long (like always) but hey, you know me for 4 years now, so I think we just passed all that shall we? Fuhh... Pardon my french, but I guess I have to accept the reality that I am really s*cks at time management. So what I'm trying to say is, oh my where do I start... Thank you so much for being a very great reader, bare with my laziness, my weird language, my messy grammar, my lack of emotion in post and many other freaking bad things about me. But most of all thank you for being there for me. 

I'm 13 years old now, so probably you know I'm beginning to change, my shrink said to me it's part of growing up. I think after 4 years it's time for a little bit serious talk, hehehe. I think it's been hundreds of  times I've been asked in many interviews, "what make you start your blog?" it's the most boring question ever, and I always answer it with the most boring answer I could think of. It's true I do bored at that time, nothing to do so I make a blog. But I know deep down it's never really that the true reason. For some of you who follow through the years might know and keep asking about my mom, well you know my dad and my mom are not together again and I see her walking out the door and I remember saying to myself, this time you won't look her coming back through that door again. The very first reason my dad and sisters decided to take me to my shrink is because how I respond to that event. I do not cry. My sisters keep saying it's okay to cry, you can cry if you want to. I remember like a crystal clear my answer to her, "I will cry if I want to, but I don't feel like it. If anyone should cry it's not me, it's her." I know from the look of my sister she knows something is not right with me. Well maybe she's right. Don't tell me that I'm ungrateful child, and she's my mother no matter what. I know that, more than anyone else. For what is worth I do love her, I look a lot like her. I see her every time I see myself in the mirror and it kills me. My dad keeps telling me to speak to her, call her because he knows that my mother miss me so much, but I'm too mad at that time. Something inside of me keep saying why do you do all the things you do, when you know all your actions can make you lose me, is your love is not big enough for me? But it's an old story, I forgave her a long time ago, I know she loves me and I do wish for her happiness every time I remember her. 

So the simple reason why I started my blog in the first place and post a lot of my pictures, is so that she can see me whenever she want to, see me growing up, still hearing my story and everything she might lose from separated from us. I want her to see that I'm okay and doing just fine. Other than that since she's gone there's like this hole in my heart that I can't seem to get rid of no matter how I try and when people around me busy with their life and I feel so lonely have no friend I start to talk to myself through my blog, not thinking my blog could give so many new friends, caring readers and many other gift I can't thank enough. And about my mom, well turn out she do read my blog, and said she's proud of me. Yes, it's good enough for me.  I know when she called my dad and saying how happy she is looking how grown up I become. But all this reason sure too long to answer that simple "why do you start make your blog?" question and maybe a little bit too personally too. So this is just between me and you, okay. I know I can share with you, we already friends for 4 years. 

See I grew up, other than positive things there's also bad things. I know I'm stubborn like hell and so my dad. But we never argue, I always follow whatever he and my sister thinks is right. But lately we have had some argue, not fight just having a different opinion. Lately it's about my blog, my sister can't really understand some opportunity that I turn down and I refused, just say lately so many local television contact me for interviews, talk show, commercial and other thing and I always said no. But I do not feel like wanting to do it, I know my sister wants it because she think it good for me. But I don't think so. I told my sister let me decide what's best for me, on my own. I have my own reason and asked her to just trust me and my gut. The different thing happens to my dad, this time I get another  invitation from French TV and for this one I'm dying to do it, it's been several times I refuse some big offer from outside Indonesia because my dad said I'm too young, I'm not ready, in the old days I follow his advice. But for this time, I said my opinion that I feel like I'm ready this time. We have our first argue and in the end I follow him, because I think he have all the right reason and he just worry about me. But at that moment in my head I do wish I'm 17 and can go whenever I want , the hell I want. I do dream someday I can have my adventure going away with only 1 bag and travel around the world, and going back with all the priceless wisdom and experience that money can't buy. And that is what inspired me to make this post, it's how I think I traveler look like, there's many travelers out there, they go with different reason and different dream to achieve and I try to think the outfit. 

And oh for my dad, for now I am accepting that I'm still however too young to decide something big, but I do hope there will come a time when my dad give me responsibility just like he gave my sisters to decide what they want with their life. Just like the Frank Sinatra song I want to do everything my way, I do hope when I'm old I can sing this song and mean everything in it, that I did everything my way.  I know I will make mistakes in the process maybe a little or maybe big mistakes, but I want when I'm old looking back, I have nothing to regret. Ugh this song it's been like a soundtrack of my life lately. 

My way - Frank Sinatra

And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I'll say it clear
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain
I've lived a life that's full
I traveled each and every highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Regrets, I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course, each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way

I've loved, I've laughed and cried
I've had my fill, my share of losing
And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say, not in a shy way,
"Oh, no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way"

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows and did it my way!

Yes, it was my way

We live in a wonderful world that is full of beauty, charm and adventure. There is no end to the adventures that we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open. 
Jawahrlal Nehru

The big question is whether you are going to be able to say a hearty yes to your adventure. Joseph Campbell

So here's a traveler set, I got inspired by so many things when I set this outfit, a gipsy, a worker that trying to get out of small town and have a big dream in the big city, even an angel of death that travels to find a clue how he can stop his job, hehehe. And I got this awesome glasses from kak Sonia Eryka  from RIOTS BARBIE and I think it would be cool to try to mix it up with some different style.  Enjoy! 

She's an angel of death who travels around, because she sicks of her job and she hear a story that there's 
a way to quit her job, so she travels around to find it.

Glasses : Riots Barbie 
Necklace : Nefertiti, Shamanistic
gloves : Marks & Spencer
black turtleneck : Zara
pants : EVITANUH
shoes : zara


In this look I got inspired by 1984-1985 UK miners strike where a worker go to one place to another to coal miners.

Hat + plaid shirt + pants : ZARA
cashmere cardigan : mango
boots : MUJI ( my currently favorite boots!) 
white jeans jacket : Levis 
bag : Elan - bijoux

 I think I got inspired for this look by reading and looking all photos In the shadow of mountains by Steve MacCurry, it's inspired me a lot, a girl who live in a nomadic way with all her family, travels from one place to another place.

Headscarf : ZARA
outerwear : unbranded
long skirt : EVITANUH
Goggles : Ancestral Artefacts
necklaces + bracelets : Chickhorse Label 
boots : bamboo


This is a scientist who travels around to find cures for a disease and hopes he can find a cure for it.

ski jacket : Arc'teryx
glasses : Riots barbie 
jeans : denimbirds ( it's nudie's sisters! super comfy!)
boots : muji


This is a merchant, a very sly one that travels to sell things to people with tricks and lies, you better watch out.

Hat : top shop
faux fur coat : zara
pants : from thailand
shoes : kulkith


I don't know about this one, I've been mixed up, assassin or a vampire? You decide! Both of them can't stay in one place they have to always move around.

glasses : riots barbie
book clutch : EVITANUH (still on process) 
coat : vintage
pants: Zara
boots : Zara

Let's just say she's a very eccentric kind of person who always looking for something new, because there's no place is good enough for her, therefore she always wonders around trying to find that perfect place.

Faux fur hat : Zara
glasses : riots barbie
necklaces : elan bijoux
scotland skirt : a gift from my auntie :) 

I think I don't have to explain this one, do you often watch movie where's there's an illegal worker with cheap payment? Travel from town to town to make a living, live is hard for them, but they okay with it, as long as they have each other to sing and dance with.

Scarf : ZARA
skirt : evitanuh
shirt : little nuh
outerwear : it's actually a pijama! hehehe
boots : MUJI

Do you ever hear Fast car song by Tracy Chapman? If not you should! This looks inspired by this song, it's a story about young people who have a tough life, with all problems with life, family, economy so she decides to go to make a better life, thinking she have to leave or she will live and die in her old place.  She's doesn't have a big dream or anything she just wants a good life and be someone. This is how I imagine how the character outfit. I'm not kidding when I said my look can inspired from anything including a song. 

Jacket : Esprit
glasses : riots barbie
plaid shirt : forever 21
 gray sweater : zara
pants : denimbirds
boots : MUJI
bag : FCUK

So there it is, again thank you so much, adios amigos!


Silmi Sabila said...

Those glasses and black clothes.. somehow they remind me of Despicable Me. Great post! :-)

M. Ersa Adiprasetya said...

It's so AMAZING! Great post ever from your blog Evita! Happy Blog Anniversary... Keep fabulous ahead! :)

Hei Echa!

Febby Aurora♥ said...

You look so cute, amazing, gorgeous, awesome, and all! I love the book clutch, I imagine if you open some stores in Yogyakarta or online shop maybe.

Your story, personal story, really touched my heart. You'll be "someone great" ! trust me.. Gluck!


Febby Aurora

suddenly morning said...

so here i am, its been 4 whole years being your silent reader. trust me, ms evita, you have inspired large amount of people. just like that, i never see people at your age as awesome as you are, as tough as you are. believe me when you have reached 17th, all you wannna do is go back to a point where the decision is still on other responsibility. cheers! :'D

Mary Andrikus said...

I seriously love this post, it feels like I know you personally, I love all the photos too! I just want to let you know that you are such an inspiration. May all the best for you and don't worry, I know you will get more invitation to some fashion weeks, it just not now, maybe later. Just keep believing in yourself! :)

Welcome to visit: :)

Anonymous said...

Hai Evita..

After all, you wrote again.
As usual, nice pics...
Keep it up!

Anonymous said...

makin tinggi . hehe

Nino Reyzky said...

nice to see you again Evita :)
miss your post! <333

Mustika said...

oh, finally i know the reason why you can make me your fans. you're different and super duper cool in your age.

Unknown said...

wowww nice place!

SVTR said...

happy 4th birthday for your blog, Evita..
you look so adorable! personally, I love your teeth <3

SVTR said...

happy 4th birthday for your blog, Evita..
you look so adorable! personally, I love your teeth <3

Aisy KD said...

OMG Cha, I Love you.

Wita said...

Love all your pictures

Rosalinda Tjioe said...

Omg I love these outfits! Happy blogversary evita! xx


this is blow my mind away..

Claireta Teressa said...

you're soo amazing
can;t stand how much i love your style!
youre sooo inspring!

Kathy Noto said...

I'm sure your parents are proud that they managed to raise a resilient and well-grounded young lady. I don't mind being inspired by people younger than me, especially when they're like you.

And we forgive you your lack of regular posting because when you do come back to the blogging world, you come back with a bang! hehe. Truly. This post is just beyond amazing!


dunia kecil indi said...

kamu udah tumbuh banyak, cha :) cara kamu menulis, cara kamu berpikir..
well, aku cuma bisa bilang kalau orang tua berpisah bukan berarti dia gak sayang kamu. klise, tapi trust me, memang begitu. banyak dari keluargaku yang orangtaunya berpisah. mereka gak bicara bertahun2, tapi aku percaya deep inside mereka tetap sayang anak2nya :)

lakukan apa yg mau kamu lakukan selama itu positf. gak perlu menerima 'tawaran' yg gak mau kamu lakukan. km yg tau apa yg terbaik buat diri kamu, meski, jujur aja, aku mau sekali suatu hari lihat km di di TV. tapi kalau km merasa bkn skrg waktunya, gak apa2 :)

waktu lihat foto2 km, wow, kamu udah besar banget sekarang. kamu mungkin udah lebih tinggi dari aku, hehehe. suka sekali dgn foto2mu pas pakai outer merah dan rok desain km sendiri. so pretty :) tetap jadi dirimu sendiri, ya! kisses. indi.

Anonymous said...

it's so personal, your story. and by being able to tell it, shows how you had managed to overcome your problem -whatever it was- with your mom.

your posts always succeeded to amaze me girl! keep doin it! your writings are so pure and innocent, that's what i like about your blog


hallo ibun said...

evita, you're look so awasome, gergeous.. hmmmn,, cool :)

Constance said...

I can't believe I just discovered your blog and I love it!

Mommy Ryva said...

To make it short...I LOVE your black vest and red/pink (what's the real colour anyway?) outer both with crochet looks. And that last style is so you, Dear ;)

Sesilia Anastasia said...

be patient and you know everything will be alright. If you feel like your choice is the best choice, follow it. Follow your heart :)
I was touched with your story, maybe many people out there don't know what had happened, but I know, through your story, many people know how hard it was. I'm so proud of you. You're still 13 and you are so mature..

Tiffany U. W said...

I really love your style! your hair so cute, I never tired of looking your hair♥

Sandra Azwan said...

love all the pictures! U look great!~like always....just keep on doing things that you're in love with~Sandra Azwan

hanny arianty gultom said...

set favorit adalah yang ke-3 dan ke-6, sangatt sangatt editoriall sekali.. :)

ade, kaka bangga bisa jadi temen maya kmu selama 4 tahun ini..

such a brave post for you, happy that it will not a burden anymore revealing your mom..

one day your father will trust you, and your sister will understand you..

growing up is not a matter of age, and you will be there soon.. believe..

sorry for too much talk.. :)

stay strong de..



cara pemesanan tricajus said...

you look so pretty :)

AuL Howler said...


(I'd said everything about this post in our chit-chat on twitter. hehe)

Delia Salsabila said...

you're always being an ispiring girl xx

Nur Aini Ulfah said...

You're such an inspiration Evita. Been a big fans of your blog for two years and I don't mind waiting a little longer just to read your posts, because it always amazing.
Btw, I love Tracy Chapman's Fast Car too. And you just nailed the outfit that you said been inspired by the song.

Unknown said...

icannottellyoujusthowmuchofaninspirationyouaretome. you're bloody gorgeous! and btw, i adore those goggles :D

be strong and be happy and be blessed always :)

BlackentheRed said...

Love all of them, especially the angel of death and the assassin!

btw i made a painting collage inspired by you
if you have the time, kindly take a look at it :)

warm regards

Irvina Lioni Alias Mpok Pina said...

this is the greatest post i've ever read in your blog! amaaazzziiing!!! :D

Syakir Rahman said...

kereen banget de. baru 13 udah bisa kaya gini :)

Unknown said...


nuraa said...

Awasome ourfit ,,,mirip banget ma agines denn yah ,,,,,evita kaya bunglon tampilannya beda2 dengan karakter yg beda ,keren banget evita salut sekali di umurmu yg baru 13 tahun tapi punya selera fashion yg sangat brilian .

memomobona said...

Sudah hmpir 2 thn q slalu mampir d blogmu as a silent i don't know how to comment on ur blog..i'm always luv ur pose and face xprecion..
Like u'v sumtin in ur eyes..

I luv ur style..
Maybe next time u can share bout ur daily make-up...
Visit my blog ya

ginevratonic said...

Hi Evita! I love your blog, compliments! I follow you now and I hope you'll follow me!

Kisses from Italy

Gricia (Cia) said...

Faint by this coolness!!!

victoria_vico31 said...

this is the first time I've visited your blog .....
and you make me speechless ....
you're so young, but you have a good taste ....
I can not wait for your next posts ...
nice work :)

Anonymous said...

i like the title so much

"Life is either a great adventure or nothing"

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ayumelatijewelry said...

Love you :) yes you are not kidding

Evita nuh said...

Hahaha now you mention it, it kindda is! Hahaha I love despicable me so much, And minions! Love the minions!

Frangconna said...

Read this post just make me..... OMG sigh, speechless. How can a little girl like you have so much mature personality like that.. It's make me felt like, age is no matter. And yeah, I must admit, you are really inspired almost teenagers around the world with your style, ideas, fashion.. Keep awesome and have a great one! GBU always! Your mom sure will happy and proud have a super awesome daughter like you! ^^
Anyway, guys.. visit me on :)

Tiffany Veronica said...

awesome photographs and also the passages! <3 those glasses,is like in Willy Wonka's(Johnny Depp) Charlie and The chocolate factory :D


Unknown said...

I'm envious of your talents. You has a good body, family, and etc. I hope, sometime I can be a famous fashion blogger like you, Evita! :) Feel free to visit my blog anytime you want. :)

Blair's Bazaar said...

great post my dear... amazing for a girl your age, i was never nearly this inspired when I was 13 ;) keep up the good work Evita!

Meilina Utomo said...

I like your nice amazing blog :)


eko said...

I like your Picture,,,very nice... beauty girl...makasih inspirasinya :)

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Anonymous said...

Hi Evita!
What kind of lense and camera do you use in taking the photographs here? They look brilliant, also you have a natural talent of being a fashion editor :)

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