A BIG NEWS!

In some number of interview I’ve been asked the same question, and if my little brain (with bad memory) is not mistaken, my answer to that question is might be inconstant, that’s not because I’m an inconsistent person, but simply because I don’t really know the real answer yet. So I’m just guessing and mumbling around. That question is my friend is, ‘What is your dream ?’ or ‘What do you want to be when you grow up? ‘ I’m only 12 and that question for me is like 10 years too early to be asked. How can I tell ? I have no idea, the only thing in my mind, whatever I became nonetheless it must keep me still as a good person, whatever it might be, it will make my daddy, sisters and my family proud.

As simple as that. and how do I decide what I want to be when I’m in twenties? It’s just not make sense the 12 years old me, making decision for twenties me? Because in my mind my twenties must be smarter and wiser than 12 me, so let her choose what she want to be. Do you think like that too? Or it’s just me?

Maybe I already said it in my other post (or tweet?) in my family my dad has this motto ‘’ You want it ? Work for it! ‘’ and he is serious about that. Of course our needs totally on my father, but I’m talking about things that they want, not they need. I saw my sisters working their ass of on this project, on that project and many other projects since they were in high school, yes they making their own money. I want that, yes I really want that. I’m so proud that my sisters is not just sitting around burning my fathers money (not literally… yeah you know what I mean right?) make me more woow-ed because actually they know they can.

Well of course I’m different, I’m still a kid and as the youngest child most of the time ( I must admit) I always got what I want, if it’s not from my dad then it’s from my sisters. My dad also said that his motto it’s not valid for me YET. He said I’m still too young, and like my sisters that motto will start to be valid when I’m in high school. But as far as I can remember, I always dying to start to make my own money, well my motto is the sooner the better. Right? Is it normal? Please tell me it’s normal. Hehehe.

I only want to working on something I love. Period. I do believe everything will be much more better, much much more splendid if you put some love into it. So when this opportunity come to me there’s no way I said no. ( Yes here comes the good news I mention before in my twitter) That opportunity my friends, is to start my own brand, yes my own clothing line. Do you remember my cousin from my last post? I’ll be working with her! It’s funtastic! ( yes you read it right, FUN + FANTASTIC! Hehehe) The days that I’m crazy to find something I can only imagine on the shop is finally over, now if I want to wear something I can make it, I can wear it, and you can wear it! Crazy right? as 12 me, I want to when I'm in my twenties I will look back and dying to have a time machine so the twenties me can say the greatest thanks to 12 me for making her journey is easier. I really hope someday when I look back there's nothing to regret for. I crossed my fingers!

There are like hundreds email who asked me to help them shopping, help them decide what to wear, I’m dying to help, really really do. So with this I’m practically dressing you up right? Hehehe. It’s all I can wish for to design clothes for girls my age, because I do know, we don’t have alot options. Were too old wearing that cartoon’s shirt and were too young wearing those teenagers clothes, it really is frustating. That’s why I’m so excited with this project, I even called my clothes as my babies, and I hope you will love my babies as much as I do! ( but don't worry , the size is quite big, it for 9 - 15 / 17 years old ) I promise I will tell more about it on my next post along with some designs! (pinky promise!) And if movie has something called triller I’ve got something called teaser, so here’s my design teaser for you :D wish me a very good luck okay?! hehehe

CLICK : LITTLE NUH

What a post without outfit post right? Hehehe here’s for some people who asked do I wear clothes in my blog on my daily life? Well most of it yes ( Why do I bought it if I’m not wearing it? Hehehe) but the crazy ones, nah’. But I do wear this in my daily life. So here it is, this time I’m out of my shell (not in my studio or green field near my house) And oh, tomorrow is Monday already, don’t let bad mood catch you! *kisses yawl!! (as always there's gonna be a lots of pictures!)

All pictures are courtesy of LILLEBITTE Photography

Hat : gift
green coat : mini boden
flowery and white shirt : zara kids
flowery scarf : zara kids
blue shawl : GAP
belt :zara kids
short pants: old navy
polkadot tights : kate spade
shoes : sepatu lukis spotlight
( it's hand painted shoes! love it so much!)

It's in my blood. Yes in my blood

Hello people! yeah I'm back by public demand... Hehehe yes I guess I'm the winner of bad blogger award ( or at least nominated for that category) so I would like to thanks to... my crazy exams, my try out schedule because without you guys there's no chance I could got this award ( hahaha... still got that Oscar fever ) Okay! I'll stop jocking around... hehehe

Soooo yesterday, 6th March is my sister birthday! Kak Cheche! Happy birthday!!! tsk, you knew already that you, papa and kak Nini means the world to me , so there's nothing that can make happy than seeing you happy, this is not just talking, I really mean it. If I have a singing skill I will singing this song for you, but since my voice is like a quacking duck so I will take some words from the song for you, it's a song by Lee Ann Womack, this is my wishes for you, here it goes :

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder. You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger. May you never take one single breath for granted. God forbid love ever leave you empty handed. I hope you still feel small when you stand by the ocean. Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens. Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance I hope you dance I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance. Never settle for the path of least resistance. Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking. Loving might be a mistake but it's worth making. Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter. When you come close to selling out reconsider.Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance . I hope you dance.

So this post is dedicated for my sister, and I'll tell her a glimpse of her you might want to know ( because it seems that some of you always curious about my sisters) so I'll try to describe her as good as I can. Her full name is Ferani Taskia Kirana I call her kak Cheche. she's the middle child in my family, and I believe talent is her middle name, oh my! she's full of talent ( yeah I envy her) sometimes is so hard for me to catching her up, I have to run fast or I'll be far behind. Her drawing skill is mad, her photography skill is mad, not forget to mention her editing skill ( she's already working in Axioo Photography (one of the best wedding photography in my country) as photo editor even before she graduate. She go abroad by herself, no need any money from my daddy, and not just that she also flew to other town to be a judge for national photography competition along with marvelous maestro photographer Arbain Rambey and she's doing all that when she's still 20 years old. Ugh.

She's also my teacher ( no she might not the one who take my pictures, my other sister who took it, I'll tell about her in some other time, and when she give me the permission, hehehe) but she's the one who thought me about photography, drawing and everything. Yes she's all that, but for me the best part of her is that she loves me, I know she did, she show it in her own way. She might never say it because I know she's not a type that can saying I love you out loud. But it's love, you don't have to say it. Because I can feel it alright. So I hope you can feel that I love you too kak! *a thousand wet kisses! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! stay cool!

So this is her : ( and oh, yes two sister is so different just like day and night, one is so warm and cheerful and the other one is so quite and cold, and me? I'm mixed up. hehehe so you might guess which sister kak Cheche is, the cold or the warm one?

and this is some of her hand drawings back in college, too bad she's not drawing anymore...

I know you all going to say... whaaat no outfit post??! after one month?! okay okay.. lets calm down and take a deep deep breath. There's nothing to be worry about, because I will post an outfit today! yeeeaaayy meee!!!! hehehehe

Take a look at my post title above, I'll tell you the reason behind that title. Many people asked me, where do I got my fashion skill ( still wondering thou, what fashion skill??! hehehe) and why I'm in love with fashion in my very young age? well in poetic way I'll say love have no age limit, but in serious matter I'll say : It's in my blood, yes in my blood. I don't know how and why, I just do.

So it's a benefit from having two older sisters I have so many fashion magazine to read, and they fashion spread are mad! insane! so classy, beautiful and everything. I love every single page of it, always wondering how to make such a beautiful piece of art, ah I mean clothes. I almost think there's some magic tricks behind it. So many couture playing in every single page of it, clothes that I can only imagine about. There so many piece that captivated me, but there is one piece of couture that I'm drolling over, and just like want to tease me it keep showing out in many magazine that I read, yes that one piece of couture ( I don't even know what it's called , cape? cropped blazer? what?) I don't even bother to look the price ( yeah you all know it will say : price under request) which means it might be millions! I don't even bother to ask my dad, he will only laugh. I bet he will.

But something are just meant to be my friend, so one day my sister come home and she show me this clothes catalog ( I love clothes catalog) and I'm going gaga! it's that cape catalog!!! yes exactly the one! not look like, not inspired by. it's the one! along with other collection. But what a bad luck, no price is written. I asked my sister is she might know how much that collection is, and her answer is a thunder in the middle of the day. A THUNDER! A BIG ONE! she said "I'm not sure, sure it's expensive, I'll ask kak Ines if you so curious" kak Ines is one of my cousin her real name is Shahnaz Soraya but I call her kak Ines she's in fashion design major, I heard that she also won the best jury in her final collection graduation from Esmod. cool right? . so I asked again "how kak Ines knows about the price?" and another thunder strikes a BIGGER ONE! "because she made it, it's her brand" I'm faint.

I'm begging my sister to call kak Ines. I want it sooooo freakin baaaad!!! I have to wear it! I need to see it! my skin need to touch it! or at least smell it. Seriously. So over the phone I asked kak Ines, and oh well. take a deep breath fellas. She said yes!!! that cape and other collection!!! see something are just meant to be. Just like me and that cape. we are made for each other.

Like that's not even enough, when I get the clothes it's also with the accessories, kak Ines is collaborated with G.H.O.S.T to make accessories for her collection. It's crazy right? ( I always in loooove with G.H.O.S.T !! always!) so now I can check one of my dream list. it's said : "wearing futuristic couture" check! hehehe. So you all might seen this piece in many high fashion magazine, and now I wearing it! cool right? ahh couture...

after some thinking, I made a conclusion why I love fashion? with me, kak Ines and other family member that I know also have big love for fashion. I maybe can say, It's in my blood. Yes in my blood. Thank you kak Ines, you just made one of my dream come true! you got yourself a thousand wet kisses too! Hehehehe.

so ready guys?!!

all clothes are Nez

all accessories are G.H.O.S.T

boots are from ZARA

I'm the luckiest kid in town or what? It's night already, I have to go to bed, see you next month, err just kidding! I mean next post! hehehe. Night all! kiss kiss!